We all are, shall we say, strongly encouraged to make changes in our lives at times. Sometimes they are because we want something better sometimes God says "You need change" and narrows our options so we must make them. He always allows us to decide but there are times when he narrows the options so we will do something. This is one of those times for me.
I've known for a while that I cannot survive, much less thrive, as I am living now. I'm not happy with much of anything right now. Discontent is never a happy place to be; but at times it's what we need to see that we must make a change. I have decided to go back to work. My husband has been laid off for over 2 years now and has no desire to do anything but what he used to do for work. Not necessarily a bad thing but there are no jobs in that field right now. He has decided that he's just going to be here. There is much more to this of course, but the basic idea is that he's doing dishes and not much else. I feel that you should support your husband in times of hardship but I also feel that turning down a job in his field (the only one offered in 2 yrs) because you want $27/hr and it's only $15 is wrong. His pride is again more important than the family needs are. Unfortunately I've seen that a lot over the years. I am continuing to pray for guidance for us and our family (lots of other issues here too).
I feel that going back to work and putting college on the back burner is what I need to do right now. I applied for a job listed with our local hospital last Sunday afternoon. I got an interview call on Monday. The interesting part is that the call wasn't for the job I sent a resume for. It's for what I have a degree in and honestly enjoy doing. I believe that's God at work. This job wasn't, and still isn't, listed. It has the flexibility I need with a special needs child at home. I've wanted a job like this since Boo was about 3 and I started thinking about returning to work. I can use my Spanish in this position if needed too so the schooling I've done so far is not a waste. I think education is never a waste but when it comes with the price tag I'm going to be paying the knowledge should be used as often as possible. I believe God opened this door for me. I'm believing that he's got a plan and purpose for me in this position. I've done the interview and am waiting to hear from them. I am believing that this is my position. Of course there are times when the negative thoughts slip in but I push them back with the thought that I didn't know this position existed, it found me. I should know by mid-week if all goes well. Pray for me please. I really need this job. We can't exist on what we bring in right now. We're falling behind and there are things that need taken care of that have been put off for many months.
Finances seem to be the biggest problem in many troubled marriages. Ours is no different. This won't fix everything~I know that. I just hope it will ease some of the burden so we can focus on the other issues we need to address.
Happy thoughts. Today is Monday. The start of a new week full of promise and potential. :)